Do you think that newly admitted lesbians become obsessed in the beginning? I can’t seem to look at women without picturing them naked or the ones who really attract me seem to set me to fantasizing.
I personally think it’s due to the knowledge that I CAN so I DO. But it may be a little obsessive too. Then again, maybe if I had a partner to spend some time with I wouldn’t obsess. It hasn’t been a bad thing. It just worries me that I’m different than other women. I always looked at women and felt attractions to some but now I seem to wake up thinking about women.
I think the answer lies in getting used to being me. Getting used to being an admitted woman lover. Getting used to enjoying the nearness of a woman. The shiny hasn’t worn off this new thingamajig. I suppose that’s the whole thing. Eventually, it will just be me being me. You know the good part about being lesbian? Well, one of the good parts…. when we see a woman who turns us on there isn’t any part of our body that gives it away like it does on a guy! What an advantage…
Today is another one of those days that I can’t get that fantasy lover out of my head. I’ve been so hot and bothered all day that it’s all I think about. I usually can take care of it and it doesn’t come back for a week or two but no matter how good that masturbation was yesterday… I’m back to the same problem today. I’ll run out of batteries at this rate!
There are only a few solutions to this. I can continue to masturbate until I wear out my toys. I can search for casual sex online. I can search for a permanent committed relationship online. Marrying her would be ideal at this point. I am beginning to think I want a wife. Someone I can hold every night and be committed to for a lifetime. I know my life would have been enormously better if I hadn’t married 3 men and instead married the one woman to share my life, my emotions and my body. I should have had a wife. I wish I had found a wife. Unfortunately it’s so much easier to find a man my age than it is to find a beautiful woman soulmate to share the rest of my life.
Ramblings of a very horny lesbian today…If I don’t run out of batteries, I’ll take care of this. I still wish I had the love of my life in my bed. She’s out there somewhere wishing the same thing. I love you wherever you are and my body aches for you. When I find you, you’ll be my wife.
I'm finally complete. I'm a lesbian.
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