In a surprise move, my prospective girlfriend sent me a nude photo of herself this morning. I was pleased with what I saw but also a little taken off my feet. I had told her I was looking for a relationship, for affection, for possible love. I thought she understood this would be more than just sex. I suppose she bases this on the hetero relationships she’s had with men who only want her body when they advertise but I’m a lesbian not a guy. I never liked feeling like a piece of meat with men. I didn’t want her to feel that way. I wanted her to feel special when we finally made love.
As much as I want a soft, sexy woman to make love to, I also want a sweet, honest, open and affectionate woman to give my love. I wrote back to explain that to her. She’s a lesbian virgin so she doesn’t know what to expect and maybe she thinks that’s what being a lesbian means. Not to me. I want a soulmate. I want a friend. I want someone to hold on the couch while we watch a movie. I want to whisper I love you in her ear before I kiss her. I want a relationship.
So that’s what I told her. I hope I didn’t scare her or make her think I didn’t want her. To be honest, the picture was such a turn on that I had a hard time putting it down. She’s seen my face picture. I didn’t send her a nude one back. I could have but I didn’t because I want it to grow between us to the point where we just HAVE to have each other. Romance. Love. Desire.
Maybe I set my sights too high for this. Maybe sex is all I can hope for. I told her it won’t happen on our first date. I’m going to try to make this more than that. What would you do if you were me?
First I would be shocked by her forwardness, for I am not a forward person.
Then I would discuss the issue with my besties.
And ultimately, I would take her out on a date. Why not? Personally I like the cutesy wooing phase, so I probably wouldn’t sleep with her on the first date – course, I’m not opposed to a heavy make-out session.
If you want more than just sex then don’t settle. But hey, at least you know you could be having sex in the near future 😉